Ok a bit of info

Finals are next week, so I'm studying trying to keep up my grades so my parents will reimburse me for classes.

Been fighting with my rents alot lately mostly over how they don't think I put enough effort into my classes and also about money. The other day I was feeling kind of down so I did the only thing that makes me feel better, I bought something, nothing huge just $15 for a copy of the semi-new DC animated flick Superman/Batman Public Enemies. My parents apparently logged into my account to see how I'd been spending my money and gave me holy hell over spending $15. My mom said it was like a slap to her face. They hate it when I spend money but sometimes I just have to, I guess you could compare it to a junkie, when I get really stressed out I have to make a purchase, usually something superhero related.

They've been calling me lazy and saying that I'm just full of excuses and that there is nothing preventing me from doing well in my classes and that I just don't care enough to put forth the effort. They say I should stop being so damn unhappy because there are people much worse off than me who manage to pull it off. People who are poor or disabled or have learning disabilities. But what they can't seem to realize is that happiness and likewise unhappiness is all relative. In some ways my pain is worse than those with more tangible ailments than depression. When you're disabled or poor or have a learning disability the world feels for you, takes pity on you, even helps you, but no one cares when you're just angry and sad for no rational reason. People can't see chemical imbalances, they can't hold them in their hands or see it on your face so they dismiss it as you just not caring, and in a way they are right, I don't care, I can't think about anythig other than how angry and miserable I am and my work suffers for it. The only two things that ever seemed to ease the pain were making purchases which my ability to do is now severely hampred by the fact that the majority of my paychecks go to payback my dad for college tuition. The other thing that helped was going to see a psychologist but I had to stop that because as my parent's put it, they weren't going to pay $140 an hour for someone who was only making me feel better instead of curing me. On top of all this my pills don't seem to be working anymore, I'm in kind of a bad place right now.

Ok on to less depressing news.

NEW HEROCLIX YAY!!!!
Hopefully I'll be able to make it to a few tournaments over winter break. I was going to one this Saturday but my family decided that was the day we were all going to get the Christmas tree so that's a no-go, there's another one on the 19th and hopefully I can make it to that one.

Been making lots of theme teams lately, most of them centering around the new Captain America figure, I love that the fig has been released because now my avengers teams can truly be complete I mean it's just not the avengers without cap leading the way.

Looking forward to winter break, I've applied for four different positions at local Blockbusters hopefully something comes of it.

Started reading the series Runaways last night, it's pretty good. I can see why EB likes it.

I've officially switched over from a Gen Ed. major to an E-Marketing Major, I'll be taking whatever classes I can at Columbus State and then finishing out at Franklin University with a 4-year degree, so it looks like I have about 2 1/2 more years worth of courses to take and then I can finally be rid of College. Unfortunately this means that once again I've jipped myself out of a college experience, just like I jipped myself out of the experiences of having a car in high-school, dating, going to prom, basically name a milestone and I've missed it, hell I was even the last kid to learn to tie my shoes and I still can't ride a bike.

Essentially I'll be happy to see my college years be a thing of the past, if you're reading this then that probably means we are friends and I just want to say to you, you guys are the one thing that has made these past four years barable. Hopefully we stay in touch after we're all out of school. Frankly I find it hard to meet new people these days seeing as my genral opinion of people is not a very positive one. I doubt very much that I'll be able to meet anyone I deem relationship worthy in the next few years and once I'm out of college I'll really have no way of meeting women, so I suppose I'll be alone in that aspect for the majority if not entirety of my life. I'll make very few friends at work mainly because I don't want to be friends with people I work with, so unless I keep going to heroclix tournaments and meet people there I can't really say how I'll be able to make new friends. So thanks everyone for your friendship, it has meant the world to me.

Sorry for the depressing update, it's been a rough quarter.

Ok so down to the basics

Since I last posted I've been making many heroclix trades, trying to aquire some of my key wants out of the game. Since I will be taking part in certain open format competitions I am no longer restricting myself to tournament legal figs.

I have switched my major to Marketing. My thought behind the change was as follows.
I've been in college for four years and I haven't even completed a two-year degree yet, it feels like a wasted four years. Seeing as how difficult community college has been for me, I am starting to think I will not be completeing a four-year degree. Because of this I decided to change my two-year program from an Associate of Arts to Marketing. An associate of arts is fine if you are going to complete a four-year degree, otherwise it makes you look like an indcisive asshole who went to college for the sole purpose of putting off the real world for 2-4 years. So it seemed as though it would be beneficial to get a real degree and not some bullshit one. With this degree and perhaps one-day a completed 4-year marketing degree hopefully I can find a career doing something with comic books or maybe even working for WizKids. But I just don't want to end up like the people I currently work with, having a two-year degree in bullshit and working full-time at a Giant Eagle Grocers.

Concerning the girl I mentioned in a previous post. It has come to naught, not by way of rejection but by way of personal epiphany. I just do not believe it would benefit either party if I began dating an 18-year-old college freshman. I'm almost 22, I should be graduating this year but am not. Also my financial situation barely supports myself let alone the cost of a girlfriend. At the same time, I feel as though I would have very little in common with an 18-year-old, also my current melancholy may only drag her down with me. Also if I was going to date a geeky girl, I would much rather date one who liked superhero comics and not Manga. I am open to the idea of her being a friend, but that is all.

Who can take your debt?
Make it go away?
While the bank goes under from the mortgage you can't pay? Obama man can!!!!

So I have this weird theory that I hope is proven right, and that is that Obama was put into power by Rush Limbaugh, Glenn Beck, and Sean Hannity for the soul purpose of making the Democrats look bad (as if they can't do that themselves) and getting rid of Nancy Pelosee and most of the democrats in power. I mean how else does it make sense that a man thought to be a messaiah of america is such a total douche-wash..oh yeah cause the entire election was solely about race. God I hope he doesn't win a second time.

So I'm still uber-excited about the new upcoming heroclix set, it'll be out next week.

I've been doing pretty well in my heroclix games with Tim, he's getting kinda pissed cause he's not used to losing to me, I can't tell if it's cause he's slipping, I'm getting better, or if it's just the much more expensive figs I own, maybe a combination of the three. Anyway it'll be nice to see how my skills stack up against the guys at the tournament next thursday.

the tournament is open format meaning you can use any guy from any set. 500 point teams each with a general who is leading your force he can cost any number of points you want, the rest of the team must be 70 points or under. If your general dies then the game is over.

I'm going to use a guy called Magog as my General, for those of you not familiar with Magog I suggest you look him up he's pretty wicked in the comics. The rest of the guys on the team are all there to boost his stats, heal him, or just get in the way of people smashing him. Should be a pretty good team.

So I was having a discussion with a friend about the shroud of turin, about how it may have been made by Davinchi using his own face and what a laugh it must have been for a heretic to have christians everywhere worship his face, and I decided I want to do that, I want Christians to worship my face.
I'll get to heaven, and St. Peter will be there and will say, "Sean, you got millions of christians to worship your face as a god, that's idolitry." I'll say "so are you not going to let me in?" He'll say "Oh no. you worshipped Jesus so you're golden, but just so you know if someone comes up to you and says "my son's in hell because of you" that's why."

I wish I had more people to play heroclix with outside of tournaments seeing as right now, I play with Tim..and that's it. I was hoping my friend Tommy would get into the game but he has no interest in it. maybe I'll try to get Dan or EB into it, dang I need friends I have more in common with.

Still hate my job, still hate school, still hate

that is all

Ok so some new shit has been goin down lately.

Like I said before I've been playing the PC version of GTA3, and I must admit i much prefer the pc version to the PS2 one, this has always been one of my favorite games and I'm glad to be playing it again, I've also been using several skin mods in the game, to say turn the cars into actual models of cars, put actual stores in the city and change my character to either SS3 Goku or Cloud Strife, yeah it's been fun

I also now have Final Fantasy VII on my computer and that's been fun despite some minor setbacks like having to replay the OH NO PRESIDENT SHINRA IS DEAD cutscene like a million times and still being stuck between catching the elusive chocobo or fighting the giant snake monster. But I like the game. I wouldn't have payed 70 bucks for it like some people would but it's a fun game.

Been reading a comic book called "Project Superpowers" it's co-written and partially illustrated by Alex Ross and I must say I did not know he wrote comics but I'm glad he does. It's an interesting story about WW2 superheroes suddenly appearing in modern times after being lost for almost 60 years. It's really well written and the guy who does most of the art is really tallented. If they come out with a vol. 2 I'll be sure to buy it.

Classes are going well, I've applied to OSU for Winter Quarter now I'm just waiting on a few transcripts to be sent so they can process my request. Hopefully I'll be out of CSCC soon.

Went to a customer service seminar at work yesterday. I had to sit in a room for 4 hours discussing things I already know how to do. It blew chunks. I'm great at customer service, granted most of my coworkers aren't but that's not what pissed me off. What pissed me off was not that they wanted us to give great customer service, but that they wanted us to want to give great customer service. I mean I make 8.50 an hour which is pretty good for a cashier, still I'm not payed enough to give a damn, I give great customer service because I don't want to be fired and want to be a good employee. When someone is excited about the new work uniforms because he gets to wear a hat that makes it easier not to look at people there's not much chance that he's gonna give great service because he cares about the customers. The way I figure it so long as the job gets done and gets done well, who cares about the motivations behind it?

Don't let that last paragraph fool you, I am in especially good spirits. For the first time in a long while I am actually happy. I've actually met someone who right now is just a friend but there is definately potential there. I can't believe I'm actually excited to go to class for a change. Sure I'm broke and my parents still give me headaches (just today they yelled at me for being out late even though I was up and out the door on time) but I actually feel good, like there's less pressure upon me. I have friends, a job, freetime, and who knows what else is in store for me. I feel good, and I hope it stays that way.

Been playing Superhero City on facebook, if you are at all into facebook games I reccomend this one. it's a lot of fun. I've been playing more games since cancelling my WoW account, I guess it's easier to enjoy free games when you aren't sinking 15 a month into one that costs actual money

Also New Heroclix set comes out November 18th YAY!!!!!

Mmm bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

that being said I hate the recent trend of people starting off their Journals making their facebook status a quote from either poety or the lyrics of a song, it doesn't make you clever or deep or even interesting, you're just as stupid as the rest of the world so stop trying so hard I still hate you...

Anyway about a month till HoT comes out so (YaY Loki)
Been playing GTA3 on muh PC still (yay goku)
Been going to class (boo class)
Saw an awesome horror film called Trick R Treat (Yay Sam)
Reading an awesome new comic I bought called project superpowers (yay heroes)

That is all (yay over)

Ok so I'm in my second week of fall quarter. Hopefully this will be my last quarter at columbus State. I am hoping to get accepted into OSU for winter or Spring Quarter, though if that doesn't work out I am considering completeing my degree at Franklin University. Though as far as college goes my preference would be towards OSU and a typical college experience in perfect honesty if I could skip college all together and begin a lucrative career today I do it in a heartbeat.
I hate college, supposedly it's the best years of your life, if that's the case then I should kill myself because as far as school is concerned they've been the worst. I'll admit I have had fun with my group of friends, a lot of fun, but that in no way has anything to do with school and I most likely would have had the same experiences with them had I been working a full time job. I hate Columbus State and I hated Bowling Green, so to assume that OSU will be any different is a big gamble. Still it's one I hope to make. I am taking a Business Communication class and two upper level english classes to boost my GPA to better appeal to a 4-year institution.

In other news, Halloween is just around the corner and I am happy two say I have my costume done, I gave up on the Rorschach idea and briefly considered going as Clark Kent aka Superman but have instead opted for a more obscure masked mystery man who until such a time as I attend a halloween party shall remain nameless.

In Heroclix news the game is coming back, the company has been purchased and work has resumed on the game, the upcoming Hammer of Thor set is due to release in November and already the Collosal Fig "Thor's Mighty Chariot" is available for Purchase on Amazon.com, I already got mine, he is awesome. I'm so happy heroclix is back.

Been Playing Ultimate Alliance 2 with Tim and Dani lately it's a fun game, could stand to have a longer storyline and a few more characters but it's altogether a better game than the original Ultimate Alliance.
Played Batman Arkham Asylum a bit when I rented it from Blockbuster, it's a masterpiece of gaming and superherodom. I can't wait to buy it.

New DC animated universe DVD comes out tomorrow, it's based of of one of my favorite comics "Batman/Superman public enemies" you can bet I'll be getting a copy.

Planning on having a movie night on Halloween after Trick r' Treat so if you are reading this you are probably invited.

Hope all is well with you guys. Talk to you later.